37 weeks gestation

First week home

 

It is so crazy how fast this past week has flown by but at the same time dragged on. No one can prepare you for parenthood. The joy of being a parent along with the sleep deprivation.

I love my bouncer

Blakelyn has been a really good baby overall. She sleeps, eats, and poops; haha We are all still learning each other. When she sleeps she is not quiet, she coos, and grunts. The key to a good sleep is a good swaddle which is an art in its self. She is one strong diva and can get out of almost every swaddle we do. Nights are filled with worrying. Every noise she makes we are thinking she is unhappy and not sleeping but she is. The nights that are filled with silence we worry about her breathing and SIDS. Our nights of deep sleep is now over. In the middle of the night I wake up thinking I fell asleep with my pump attached and my nipples are going to be raw and will loose my milk. People tell you once you have a child you are going to have crazy dreams.... that is so true!

Blakelyn loves her swing and vibrating bouncer along with country music. She is too big for preemie clothes but the up to 7lb newborn clothes are too big also. Either she is drowning in her clothes or a little tight. We just need her to gain weight so she can fit in all the cute outfits we have waiting for her.

"I'm an angle, I'm an angle"

We have been to the doctors 2 times our first week home. We go for weight checks and seeing if she is on track. Blakelyn weighs 5lb 7oz and is 18 1/2in long she is in the 3% for weight, height, head for a 2 1/2 month old. That's not bad at all because technically she is -3 weeks gestation instead of 2 months old. I am surprised she is on the percentile at all. I am glad we went with the doctor we went with. He is super helpful and answers our millions of questions and we don't feel judged by having so many questions. Having a NICU baby is scary because we know what can go wrong. Good thing she is more durable then we think. I know they wouldn't have sent us home if she wasn't stable enough to have US be in charge.

 

We are getting use to our new normal and love every minute of it.

36 weeks Gestation

Chapter NICU...
The End

 

Sorry its taken me so long to post our lives went from normal NICU life to CRAZY. I finally go to have a baby shower. When I was in the hospital about to have Blakelyn, having a shower was on my top 5 things I was worrying about (while under the influence of pain meds haha) I was concerned I didn't get a shower. The shower turned out better then I could have ever imagined. My mom and sisters did an amazing job putting it all together and all the family that helped bring treats. I am truly blessed to have such loving friends and family. I got everything we needed to be ready for Blakelyn to finally arrive and we couldn't have been ready if it weren't for all the gifts we received.

Everything from the shower

Ben came and helped opened presents at the end

The few days before getting to take Blakelyn home were so unsure. You never truly know your going home till the day before. We weren't holding our breaths. But that day finally did come. On February 10th Ben and I finally got our turn to room in. We saw more then we can count parents taking their babies home and the nurses always said... one day it will be your turn. NOW it was finally OUR turn. We got to the hospital one last time that night. They tell us to wait out in the waiting room and they will come get us when they are ready. EEK!!!! My heart was so happy, nervous, and sad. We had dedicated the past 79 days of our lives to the Ogden Regional NICU. Building relationships that we will never forget. Those nurses were our therapist, friend, enemy(poking our princess), turned family.

Being parents that first night wasn't what we were thinking. I am guessing we got a total 1hr of sleep that night. We were worried if she was eating enough, breathing, and sleeping enough to grow big and strong. We went from having a fragile micro preemie to a 5lb girl we are going to be in charge of the rest of our lives...... I had been waiting and wanting the day to come for so long. Now it is finally here.



wire less for the first time



The following morning we said good bye to a few of the ladies that got us to this point and all I did was cry. I had relied on them to show me what to do and how to raise my miracle child. Now it was my job. Having Blakelyn do as well as she did makes me nervous/ excited beyond words knowing she is here for a reason and it is a big one. She is going to do great things in her life. I hope I can be the mom she needs me to be, teach her all the things she need to thrive in this big world.

Once we got home Ben and I didn't know what to do with ourselves. Ever time we had a question our instinct was to call the NICU and ask them what we should do but.. we were no longer NICU parents. We were NICU graduates. Good thing we had a nurses number we could annoy with our questions.

It has been an adjustment for sure but I am loving every minute of it.

We still have a long ways to go. Blakelyn is still a very fragile infant and will be for the next 6months to a year. http://anearlystartblog.com/2014/01/07/isolation-isnt-about-you/ If you wonder why its so important why we cant have visitors like other new born's get this article put it in a good perspective. Blakelyn is our number one,

ready to go home

 



 as her parents we need to keep her healthy. We don't want to end up back at the ICU. Its not fun that we cant share our adorable miracle but Ben and I both hope everyone is understanding and doesn't put us in a situation where we are going to hurt feelings because we will if we have to ;)

 

 

 

Thank you to every one for all the support you have given us through this long NICU stay.  



35 weeks Gestation

Sunny days and gloomy days

only IV picture we took this week

 

Sorry its taken me so long to get on here and post week 35. Our lives over the past week have been full of craziness.

At the first of this week things were on a good roll. Blakelyn was taking bottles more and more and drinking the majority of them each time. The end was finally looking more bright....

THEN the we took a big step back. On the 27th I went down for the 8:00pm visit. The NICU all of a sudden was crazy busy. They had 20+ babies when the NICU's capacity is 16. They had double babies in one section and some in other rooms close by the NICU. The doctor was just getting done with his rounds and he said... "I know we don't have to worry anymore about Blakelyn!" Not even 5min after that I went to go and change her diaper. My heart dropped. Her stool had bright red mucus in it. I knew things weren't going to be good. I grabbed her nurse and she said "I Knew he was going to jinx her. Most of the time when we get busy and sick babies in the healthy ones for some reason get sick too." UGH

 Really???? What more we need to go through??

The doctor decided to put her feedings on hold, and order an x-ray of her intestines. The following morning (my birthday) the nurse called me letting know what happened over the night. They had done blood work and it didn't come back good. She had an elevated white blood cell count meaning another infection. Her x-ray didn't come back normal either. She had signs of gas in her intestines and early signs of NEC. Most cases NEC isn't fatal but if you don't catch it in time or if it is bad enough it can be fatal in tiny babies.

I thought we were on a good track to going home but guess this is apart of the road with having a micro preemie. In all reality we have had it pretty easy and not so many set backs compared to what it could be like. This is the worst birthday ever. Someone at my work helped make light of things. "You know Blakelyn loves being the center of attention, you think she was going to let you have one day to yourself?" I laughed through the tears. I knew that was true. That night I had a feeling we needed a little extra help from the man upstairs. I asked one of the pastors from church to come and pray over Blakelyn. We needed all the help and comfort we could get. When we come together in prayer as a group the outcome is greater. I am so grateful we have such a loving God, he definitely has great plans for Blakelyn and being her parents is the best thing that could happen to us.

On the 29th that afternoon we got another phone call this time from the doctor saying her hematocrit levels were low again and they needed to do a third blood transfusion. I guess when it rains it likes to pour in my life, it can never just sprinkle. She as already NPO (no feedings) we might as well add on another IV to the mess we are already in.

Once Friday came her blood work came back normal, healthy and her x-rays were also back to normal. FINALLY!!!!! Back to were we left off. They started to feed her little at a time and keep a close eye on things and cross fingers everything goes good.

Over those 3 days we had lots of worring, tears, prayers, and relief.